Duality

So desperate she looks 
So sad, so pathetic 
Smile painted on face 
Eyes apologetic 

She wants to be one 
At one with the world 
But the feelings inside 
Hold her back 

There’s two of her now 
The one on the inside 
And the one on the out 
It’s the only way to cope 

Outside is jolly girl 
Happy with life 
Good for a laugh 
Whether laughed with or at 

Inside is crumbling 
Terrified, meek 
Scared of everything 
People, death, own shadow