Misgivings

This doesn’t feel good anymore 
I was open to the possibilities before 
Seeing where things would go of their own accord 
But now my gut is saying no 

Is it because I am pushing? 
Is it actually objecting or saying not now? 
But why, if this is all wrong, 
Are so many things falling into place? 

I don’t know what to make of it 
Don’t know what to make of any of this    
The brain power needed for sense-making 
Is far, far out of my reach 

So, what do I do now? 
Let it slide or override? 
Or proceed in the name of He who does know all 
And let Him be the one to decide?